A couple weeks ago I was frantic with finding a new job. Taking pictures of cars in all sorts of weather just wasn’t cutting it. I threw out my ambitions of being a professional web designer, because I really don’t like designing for people anyway and I even quit school, for now. I had to pull myself up by my bootstraps and get a job. And boy did I.

I am making good money and I move a lot. Yes I am happy with that. I was always at the computer, now I just read the news. I hate sitting all the time, it messes up my back, and I gain weight x;(. The job consists of Shipping and Receiving, what I used to do. Plus I get to utilize my background (kinda) in Semiconductor and Electronics. So I will be blogging about me, my family, pets and well, just normal stuff and normal life.

I’ll have my weekends back and my evenings with my family. We also had to give up homeschooling, which is disappointing, but we wouldn’t be able to carry on with that. Although I still can’t stand this school district, I hope there is a good elementary school SOMEWHERE around here. The kiddo will be back in public school by next week.

I am happy now. I have a job I like and can tolerate, I am making good money and we can pay bills AND have fun again. x;)

I’m so happy that Hillary won the California primary. It actually makes me happy to be a Californian. I didn’t vote. I couldn’t make it yesterday due to crap beyond my control.

Although I didn’t vote in the primary and don’t have a red cent to contribute to her campaign, I really hope she wins. I believe we need her in the white house and she would be the best Commander in Chief. As a woman, a mother and someone that wasn’t born with a silver spoon in my mouth, I believe she will fight for the small people. I have always admired her push for suitable health care for American’s and who gives a shit if she voted for the war? All American’s were on that bandwagon and she wasn’t the only one who voted for it.

I have always liked her since I was a kid and wanted to vote for Bill, but was too young. I applaud her as a woman, a mother and a politician. I just hope she wins, for woman and mankind.

It seems when a person is brought down by life, others do all they can to keep a person down. Or they just don’t care that that person is down and that of course makes the down person feel like shit. To say the least.

Lately everyday is a challenge. I feel like I’m being thrown the 10 fucking plagues. Except its a new version for the modern era. I know its life and it happens to everyone, but on a daily basis? I seriously can’t handle it anymore. I know I got myself into, well, all of my situations, but a little fucking understanding from people would be nice.

I feel beaten down, exposed and very vulnerable. I cry whenever I get the chance to and I hope for the best. I have had to pick myself by the boot straps with no doctors, medications or rehab.

I am trying to see the lighter side. I know with hard work I can get out of this rut. I know I’m O.K…. its everyone else thats fucked up. x;)

My daughter started scratching the week she came back from Disneyland in September. So I switched the cheap ass detergent we were using back to the perfume free / dye free detergent we usually use. It seemed to clear up. Off and on there would be flare ups. She would scratch until it bled. I felt so bad. Then it would go away and then be back with a vengeance. Well I did one of my legendary searches on the Internet and came up with some interesting information.

First off I didn’t take her to the doctors… yet. I don’t feel that she is in any danger and with what I have conjured I think she will heal. I discovered that a change in diet and flax seed oil can help eliminate eczema. I also learned that childhood vaccinations can trigger eczema. I asked G when it was she started itching. She recalled itching a week after here Hep A and Chicken Pox vacc. I was immediatley cursing the establishment and Kaiser when I put 2 and 2 together. But of course Im not a blood sucking doctor so what do I know. I do know that my daughter has BEAUTIFUL skin and now she has eczema on her fore arms, elbows, knees and one of her feet.

I also learned that if a biological parent had hay fever (that lame sperm donor had it) the child could be susceptible to eczema. So now I am blaming that idiot and Kaiser because my baby itches!

She is drinking water and tea and staying away from junk food plus taking flax seed oil, 1 tablespoon 3 times a day in her yogurt. At least she better be. I had to take her to my brothers so my mom could take care of her and give her the attention she needs while I took care of work. Plus our heater is out and our landlord is coming tomorrow to fix it. I get her back on Sunday and wewill of course continue the regimen.

So I’m hoping with the change in diet, flax seed oil and plenty of water, she will be able to beat this damned eczema!