You know, I can’t believe what I read sometimes. I mean they say (whoever “they” is) don’t believe everything you read. Then what happens when the unbelievable is true?

I know everyone on goddesses green earth has read about the woman on the toilet for 2 years. That was a big WHAT THE FUCK? seriously man… I started thinking about all the things I did in the last two years while she was sitting on the toilet. That is just crazy.

Then I read about a stupid bitch that threw her 2 sons, 6 and 8 years old, and herself off a freeway over pass in Dallas, Texas. Yeah I know you read that one too. What dumb Bitch. Seriously. Leave your kids on the sidewalk and jump by yourself in front of a Semi. Dumb hoe.

Oh speaking of hoes… How about New York’s, now former, Governor. He’s a dumb bitch too. Is there a reason his wife hasn’t filed divorce papers yet? Is it because he is an a heir to some real estate fortune. Thats the only reason I’d be sticking around. Then I would speand his money on parties and hot young guys. What a puto.

a little update on me and my J-O-B. Its a rad job, a tad crazy at times, but I love it.

And will Britney Spears just go the fuck away already?

A couple weeks ago I was frantic with finding a new job. Taking pictures of cars in all sorts of weather just wasn’t cutting it. I threw out my ambitions of being a professional web designer, because I really don’t like designing for people anyway and I even quit school, for now. I had to pull myself up by my bootstraps and get a job. And boy did I.

I am making good money and I move a lot. Yes I am happy with that. I was always at the computer, now I just read the news. I hate sitting all the time, it messes up my back, and I gain weight x;(. The job consists of Shipping and Receiving, what I used to do. Plus I get to utilize my background (kinda) in Semiconductor and Electronics. So I will be blogging about me, my family, pets and well, just normal stuff and normal life.

I’ll have my weekends back and my evenings with my family. We also had to give up homeschooling, which is disappointing, but we wouldn’t be able to carry on with that. Although I still can’t stand this school district, I hope there is a good elementary school SOMEWHERE around here. The kiddo will be back in public school by next week.

I am happy now. I have a job I like and can tolerate, I am making good money and we can pay bills AND have fun again. x;)

My daughter started scratching the week she came back from Disneyland in September. So I switched the cheap ass detergent we were using back to the perfume free / dye free detergent we usually use. It seemed to clear up. Off and on there would be flare ups. She would scratch until it bled. I felt so bad. Then it would go away and then be back with a vengeance. Well I did one of my legendary searches on the Internet and came up with some interesting information.

First off I didn’t take her to the doctors… yet. I don’t feel that she is in any danger and with what I have conjured I think she will heal. I discovered that a change in diet and flax seed oil can help eliminate eczema. I also learned that childhood vaccinations can trigger eczema. I asked G when it was she started itching. She recalled itching a week after here Hep A and Chicken Pox vacc. I was immediatley cursing the establishment and Kaiser when I put 2 and 2 together. But of course Im not a blood sucking doctor so what do I know. I do know that my daughter has BEAUTIFUL skin and now she has eczema on her fore arms, elbows, knees and one of her feet.

I also learned that if a biological parent had hay fever (that lame sperm donor had it) the child could be susceptible to eczema. So now I am blaming that idiot and Kaiser because my baby itches!

She is drinking water and tea and staying away from junk food plus taking flax seed oil, 1 tablespoon 3 times a day in her yogurt. At least she better be. I had to take her to my brothers so my mom could take care of her and give her the attention she needs while I took care of work. Plus our heater is out and our landlord is coming tomorrow to fix it. I get her back on Sunday and wewill of course continue the regimen.

So I’m hoping with the change in diet, flax seed oil and plenty of water, she will be able to beat this damned eczema!

I had to make myself get out of bed this morning. But I did get out of bed… I pryed myself out, threw coffee down my throat and proceeded to holler at animals, rattle on nervously about the day ahead of me and anxiously, shower. I had gotten a brief charge out of going out today. But thats the exhibitionist in me, which was quickly squashed by the nervous wreck in me. So, it made for an interesting day.

My daughter was along for the ride and she keeps me sane and occupied as if the work wasn’t enough. Oh yes… lets add that to my list of weird things… parenting at work. I know a lot of us women do it these days, but when I got to talk through my teeth at my kid because she is out towards the side walk when she should be closer to the  inside of the car lot. Or because she is in the way of a picture of a car i’m trying to take, or because shes just farting around. It keeps my mind off the crap that has me down. Seriously. x:|

We get to stay home tomorrow because its going to rain like the end times and I’m ready for it!

I go through the state program for my daughter’s health insurance. Here in California it is called Healthy Families. Being self employed I have no insurance for myself, so given the fact that my income isn’t that much (yet x;) ) I qualify for Healthy Families for my daughter.

So with all this hub bub about children’s insurance in the news I didn’t realize it was going to affect us. I mean HELLO MCFLY. Can you believe how dumb I was not to realized they were talking about US? So when I finally connected the dots I got stressed out and frustrated.

Bush says he vetoed the bill because people that can afford insurance or recieve benefits would still be able to qualify… wtf? Why the hell would that happen? Why would they write a bill that would let RICH PEOPLE get state insurance for their kids. Either the president is an idiot (I know, I know… he IS an idiot) or The bill sucked and someone felt sorry for the rich kids too. I’m sorry I don’t feel sorry for rich kids (Lindsay and Britney I’m talking to you… you are also still kids until you grow the EFF up).

Why do the kids that need this kind of stuff the most get screwed? This bill doesn’t pass… kids with money STILL get insurance, but mine doesn’t… I guess that would then become my fault right?

So as of November my child has no insurance. Thank you Mr. President for funding that dumb ass war of yours in two days and keeping the money from the kids.

Today was my daughter’s 10th birthday. I was 21 when I had her. We have grown up a lot together. It might sound cliche, but it really seems like only yesterday she was a little baby girl.

We went to Build-a-Bear Workshop today then to Cold Stone Creamery for ice cream. We brought along 3 of her friends, plus her uncle and grandmother came. Yes, her birthday was at the mall (hence the hot dog on a stick backdrop). It wasn’t even our local mall, we had to drive 45 minutes (including picking up other girls in another town).

Happy Birthday My Love (with her new Hannah Montana bedspread courtesy of Uncle Pete, he’s hiding behind the Hannah Montana bedspread).

What constitutes as a perfect mother? or even a good mother? Signing your kid up for too many extra curricular activities? Driving an SUV? No make-up? wearing “mom” clothes?

Ack… i am SO NOT YOUR TYPICAL MOTHER! I am a mother, yes, by every meaning of the word. But I am not stereo typical.

This of course isn’t a regular mommy blog. Its really a life blog. I am a mother and proud of it and proud to be the mother of my daughter. She is turning out to be a lovely young lady who has morals, spunk and street smarts. I don’t really deserve to be her mother. ANY OF YOU would love to be the mother of this child. If she wasn’t my kid I know I would want to be.

Her are some reasons I am not a good mother:

I cuss like a truck driver
I have loads of tattoos
I am a recovering alcoholic (who wishes she had a beer right now)
I yell too much
I still cut up my clothes and I love zipper and saftey pins
I use plastic
I don’t go anywhere unless I have make up on
I am impatient (I think I just diagnosed myself with ADD)
I love loud music
I live by the rule *DO AS I SAY AND NOT AS I DO*

Now for the reasons I am a good mother:

There is a bed time, and that would be 9pm
My daughter doesn’t go out of this house unless her hair is brushed
I don’t lie to my child, she knows EVERYTHING that goes on with me (and a little of what goes on with other people)
I talk to my child WOW WHAT A FUCKING CONCEPT! I explain sex, drugs and even rock and roll
I tell her to keep away from boys and to stay in school (I don’t want to be a grandmother at the age of 38)
I encourage good role models and tell her everything wrong with the bad ones and why it is stupid to be like that
I am teaching her all the gray areas of life and not to jump to accept the black and white

So some might not think I am a good mother, and some might look through the facade. Either way I really don’t give a shit.