this time last year
Today I remembered where I was last year. I was terribly sick in bed and pissed because I couldn't enjoy thanksgiving. Now this thanksgiving I am miserable I don't have my baby.
The feeling of not being woman enough to carry a child is weighing on me. I couldn't do it because I was so sick. It is an emptiness that has haunted me.
I can't even talk about it. My family gets this glazed look in there eyes when I bring any aspect of the situation up. Then we have to move on to another subject, because it would be wrong for anyone besides myself to be miserable.
We have been talking about just getting pregnant again and getting the help I need this time because my family knows what to do. But seriously, how bad would I have had to get before they would have got me help anyway? I don't know if I can trust them.
Labels: hg, hyperemesis gravidarum
1 Comments:
I am preparing for my third pregnancy and aware of the possibility of an HG one like my previous two. It is debilitating, depressing beyond belief. I still have the scars on my two forearms from the IVs...4 on each like connect the dots! Psychologically I have been scared as well and terrified to enter this possible HG pregnancy for the third time BUT this time around I am taking the time to realize that once it's over...I am normal again! Mental preparation with the help of vitamins is probably the best...not expecting it to happen also. As for those who think they can help...holding that bucket and allowing one to lie down instead of sitting is the best they can do.
YOU CAN DO THIS
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