a personal update
It is getting pretty close to the time to try to conceive, yet I don't think we are going to try. I think we might wait a couple months. We have issues like MONEY (blah) that make it difficult to have an HG pregnancy.
That doesn't mean I won't be updating this blog. I have been running into some good stuff regarding accounts of HG or situations relating. I think I am in this for the long haul. "This " meaning HG education.
This i all very frustrating. I want to have another child, but a the same time I feel I am subjecting my family and myself to a death sentence. I can't talk enough about how HG can suck your life from you. I'm not talking about petty or vain life experiences. I am talking about finally going pee after holding it FOREVER (because you are too weak and sick to get up), because I will definitely piss myself if I don't.
There is never ending crying, vomiting, suicide thoughts, picturing your landlord throwing you and your family out of your home because there is no money for you pay rent. The horrible, doomed thoughts go on, what seems like, forever.
It is awful, but I have rights as a woman. I have exercised many rights as a woman and went through hell for it. This is no different.
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